When Things Come to Head

When things come to head

While lying in bed

Bits and pieces of realisation

Abandonment fucked me over

And I’ve lived every second

Ignoring it

Coming to terms with it

Accepting that it’s real life

Not playing on it

When I could have

Couldn’t face going to my mother’s funeral

Just worked

Every time my dad broke my heart

I shrugged and accepted it

Because that’s all he did and still does

I should have trust issues

From this amount of hurt

Yet I don’t

I’m grateful for everything life has thrown

Because it’s all been a lesson learnt

It’s only now when I get sat down and explained how serious things were

Then I understand…

I’m ready to sort my life out

And put the past behind me

I’m ready

Ready to take a deep breath and ignore the stress

Overcome by my anxiety

I’m ready to say fuck you to the people

Who don’t deserve me

And fuck you to the people who stabbed me in the back

Cause I’ve got the deepest wounds and they still hurt like hell.

But the people who caused them are struggling still

Karmas a fucking bitch if you’re evil

But let’s put it all behind us

Cause I certainly will

While you’re thinking of what could of and

Would of happened

I cut the chords

On all the feelings felt

No flies on me

So let’s make a toast to rebirth…

And to a life without hurt…

Cheers